my daughter is my hero

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girl crush moment:

this girl is my hero. she’s so fearless and fun. she’s easily the person having the best time everywhere she goes. she doesn’t know a stranger. she dresses up in her girliest outfit and then hunts all over the house to find her “light sabers” to stuff in her purse because she “doesn’t go anywhere without them.”  she knows what she wants and she’s not afraid to go for it. she puts together the best outfits. she’s smart and she’s funny. and she’s punny! she’s determined and affectionate. she’s helpful and enthusiastic. she’s creative. she’s independent but loves being part of a team.

in short, she’s all the things i want to be when i grow up.

what i feel about this age + stage is that i realize mike and i may have very little to do with how great this person is. when they are young you feel this overwhelming weight of how they’re going to turn out. and then, even though it seems like you do a million things wrong along the way, they turn out to be these amazing little people who are just so cool. i pray i’ll remember this with our second person and just CTFO about everything other than love and fun.

i hope you all have a kid hero.

weekending

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look at that sunny weekend! finalllllllllllllllly. we have sunshine back in our lives.

here’s my view from some of the further nesting and weekend doings we had going on:

finished darla’s dream catcher so now both my babies will have sweet dreams, had some quiet catch-up-on-work time, rubbed some old paint on some old pots and made them over like new, brewed up a tasty batch of veggie broth, wore eyeliner for the first time in a long time out for a ladies bday taco fest, cheered on the beard while he ran a High FiveK in perfect spring weather.

it was all very domestic and friend/family centric and full of spring time magic. sending you poz vibes for your week!

waffle date

mike and i sneaked in a breakfast date on friday when our morning errands magically took way less time to complete than anticipated. i would like to thank the bump for prompting me to say “hey do you want to stop for a waffle at the market?” as we drove by. so we did.

the waffles at taste of belgium are absolutely grand. they are so good that i order mine plain. see:

Taste of Belgium Waffle

going…

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going…

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gone.

i have to admit that i’ve been thinking a lot lately about how in the world we’re going to make time for “us” once this second baby comes along. i can’t really imagine how it will come to pass with all the high-five trade offs our current schedules require of us. i can’t imagine how there will be any time when we won’t have at least one of the kiddos around. it seems like finding time to communicate is hard enough as it is and the honest truth is i’m really worried about how this is all going to play out when a 4th personality is in the mix.

how are people doing this all over the world? how do most of you make it look so easy?

you can see that mike may not be so nervous about spending less time with me since he gets this when we’re alone:

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but despite some minor weirdness, it’s nice to have alone time when we can. ♥♥♥

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this girl

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i feel that the blog has been pretty pregnancy-centric lately. After 4 years of this space being devoted almost entirely to darla-doings i’m sure it’s a bit weird that i’ve not included much about her on here as of late.

just to be clear, she’s still my main girl, my mostly companion.

what can i say about this girl? she’s still running around my life as crazy as ever. but i have a good feeling about the spacing of these two children. D is really into helping and doing at this stage. she has a new chore-helper chart that she has really taken on with gusto. she likes feeling like part of the team and she is always willing to provide a hand if i need it. and boy am i going to need it here in a few months.

but mostly she is just so wildly independent. sometimes it can feel like hours have gone by where i haven’t seen her bc she’s got some project going on for herself.  i spend a lot of time wondering if this next babe is going to be as independent as his/her sister. hard to say. darla’s that way partly by nature and partly because mike and i try to take a firm parenting stance that we will help her with the things that she actually needs help with {all sharp objects} but not the things she can absolutely do for herself {like put on her socks and shoes. or wipe her own butt.} because doing things for her is ultimately very unhelpful, right? she’s not afraid to try to figure something out for herself, which i admire and hope she keeps. and she frequently tells us that she knows everything before it even happens so she has all the answers in life. ha.

well, y’all, wish me luck with that independence with this second one comes along. please send good vibes that it will be a helpful thing and not a headache thing, like darla taking a nursing session as an opportunity to try to ride her bike down the street by herself for the first time. or to cut her hair by herself…which is coming up a lot in talks lately. even though that wouldn’t be the worse thing in the world and i would kinda like to let her just rock whatever haircut she thinks looks best on her. anyway, please just send good vibes that her independent involvement with sharp and cutting objects is minimal when my attention has to be divided.

but i think all is going to be well because she’s my little bud. she’s my main girl.

and she’s going off to school come fall anyway so momma has a break. but that’s a story for another post.

you’re so lovely, california

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^^ this trip might have been us two {ahem, three} ^^

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^^ and i might have had a whole lot of fun watching that one ^^

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^^ but it really was all about these two ^^

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i can’t even begin to describe how thankful i am that we were able to take these past two weeks to be with our friends. who knows if we’ll be able to do an extended visit like this again any time soon, since both girls will be in school and the new baby on the way might shift life for a while. we coined the term “european visit” last time around b/c europeans always seem to do the extended-length visit. i think they’re on to something. it was a long enough visit to settle into a rhythm of everyday life with just a bit of adventure spice added. i just hope these girls will remember these days.

california is soooo warm and sunny and pretty! i’ve had a bit of a weather shock coming back to below freezing temps this week. and i miss my friends. i want to thank them for making it such a memorable time for us. looove you!

but i am glad to be back in the way that i feel recharged and energized to take on life again. i feel revived by travel and new experiences. in actuality, it might just be the healthy dose of vitamin d. at any rate, i’m ready to take on spring. nesting urges may now commence.

and i’m ready to see all my columbus friends again. it’s time to come out from your hiber-holes, friendlies!

bump day

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how’s that for an angle? and is it just me or does it look like that little human is sitting slightly more to my right?

in other bump news, the baby is now kicking hard enough for darla and mike to feel from the outside. darla was pretty stoked to feel the baby kick her hand. i simply adore going through this pregnancy with her by my side.

bump day

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well, i was going to take my bump picture yesterday because it was so sunny but i’m glad i waited until today, which is my estimated bump day anyway, to take it because this little sucker really popped out over night!

this bump is a funny one, though. some days it’s like WHOA and then others I feel like you can barely tell i’m pregnant. did anyone else seem to have fluctuating bump sizes?

{we had our appointment with the midwives yesterday and darla got to be the one to take my blood pressure. we also listened to the heartbeat. i’m loving being able to share this experience with her.}
 

here comes the sun, little darla

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we stopped for a brief moment during errands today to soak up some sun. i hope everyone is able to get out and do the same. i felt better after just 5 minutes. even if this is just a teaser, seeing darla splash through puddles and bask in the rays made me ache for spring.  i woke up to the sound of birds this morning so i know it has to be just around the corner…right?

i need to be back outside. that is all.

Bun in the {L}oven

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think you know what this picture means? other than that i need to give the inside of our oven door a scrub down?

Well, it only seems appropriate that on this day of love i disclose to the webiverse that this summer we’re going to have a new little wrucker to love on. 

i gots a bun in my loven oven! 

yeah, i just called it a loven oven and what’s more is i’ve used that term with clients before. i am nothing if not tactful and professional.

do you guys know what this means? this gets to turn into a pregnancy blog! the internet needs more of them! there aren’t enough out there.

but in all seriousness, i do plan on documenting this pregnancy here. now that i do birth work it’s been quite a different experience for me. it’s been a good one. it’s put me back in the shoes of my clients, reminding me what this simultaneous state of power and vulnerability feels like.  to put it bluntly i’ve had to put my money where my mouth is. i am experiencing again how hard it can be as a woman in our society to trust in my body. i am experiencing the overwhelming amounts of information out there that requires sifting through to discover the best, informed plan for my family.

i’m reminded of what it feels like for a tiny human to be an acrobat inside you and to feel ferociously determined to protect and provide for that person with each nudge and kick. 

so, we’re on our way to becoming a family of four. darla has BIG plans for her and this new babe. we told her on her 5th birthday and she was absolutely the sweetest to me. when she got her bike for her birthday she said “but where are we going to put the baby seat?” which filled me with fear of what i’m going to have to intercept down the road {bike pun!} and happiness that she sees toting a baby on her bike as normal, since that is what she experienced.

well, happy valentine’s day to all. sending you love vibes to you and yours from the growing ours.

week 47

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i’m going to break here so i can discuss the difference between everything  ▲▲▲above▲▲▲ and everthing ▼▼▼below▼▼▼

these first four pics are from our monday, the day this week i was a good mother. we got out with our besties to look at the beautiful bison at batelle darby creek metro park. it was a really great day of nature centering, trail walking, rock skipping and fish net building.

i must explain that fourth photo a bit. that is darla having more than a moment with the snowshoe hare pelt. i don’t know what it was about the snowshoe hare that made it more special to her than all the other carcasses but she was quite emotional about it. she sang to it. people, she sang to this dead animal fur and told it she wanted it to come back to life. it is life occurrences like this that make me very scared about what the future holds, or very intrigued. a little of both, i guess.

and it’s a good thing i got us out on monday because i feel like i did maybe less than average for the rest of the week. it seems like i just couldn’t get us to things on time and was a day late and a dollar short on everything. the look on darla’s face below is how i felt all week. there’s so much to be done and figured out in this life and i feel lost under it all. it’s nice to see darla has her balance b/c i don’t. the rest of you make it look so easy. you really do!

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but i’m trying to just give things time. and be thankful for the good moments that were mixed in even if i was a less than stellar human being this week.