invoking the goddess

goddess headband

true life story from my quirkiness files: i carry two of these headbands in my purse and one in my tote bag at all times. i have several more stashed in my room. these are my goddess headbands.

this practice started over a year ago with the life(dot)next desert directive retreat. i pull one out and put it on whenever i recognize that i’m just not keeping up with the demands of my day. and then i pull the second one out and hand it to darla because she will inevitably asks to don one once i do. this grown-up version of dress up helps me invoke the properties i’m not doing a good job of naturally possessing in any given moment.

my usual goddess go-to is demeter because she is the mother archetype. i find myself to not be a natural mother-woman. i will make a great girl scout troop leader; full of adventure, ideals and advice but it is the softer elements of motherhood that i frequently need to invoke. patience, understanding, sympathy and serenity are things i have to work on daily.

another favorite goddess of mine to invoke is hestia, the goddess of hearth and home. she helps me find joy and satisfaction in my daily chores and has been especially helpful to me during this nesty phase of my life. if i’m on the way to an interview i invoke artemis, the goddess of the hunt. she helps me feel confident in my capabilities to serve families.

i know this is silly, but i like silly. the ritual of this helps me focus my energy and get centered again. some people sit down to meditation. some people open up their spiritual texts. some light a candle. i put on a shiny headband.

to each her own.

{if you are interested in learning more about goddess archetypes i recommend Goddesses in Everywoman. it’s a book that has a permanent resting spot by my bed.}


weekending 47

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we’re settled in enough to be able to make biscuits and bacon. that’s good enough for me.

friends, we’re kinda settling into a midwestern winter over here. i’ve been trying to deny it but temps are getting low and we’re getting snow flurries on the regular. d’s already in the christmas spirit and even though i feel too discombobulated to be fully there myself, i’m enjoying the yuletide tunes on the radio and christmas movies making their way into our rotation.

i know these last five weeks of the year are going to really give me a run for my money. kinda literally. i’ll be running all over this town for clients. plus christmas. plus my wonderful part-time job. and other commitments. and it’s all very overwhelming when most of my life is still in boxes and totes.

but for now i can enjoy things like a little biscuit baker, bedroom dance parties, sunday morning movies, 5 year-olds delighting in snowfall, and bacon. always, always bacon.

daily moment

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my vain daily moment was the arrival of my new fall floppy. it was instant love. expect to see lots of fall/winter photos of me in a capped head. yay for not dealing with hairstyles for the entirety for winter. i’m kidding. i think…

but my serious daily moment would have to be this:

the german shepherd had his head out the back window. his ears blew back in the breeze as he gripped his tennis ball in his mouth. this car was in front of me in the left lane, the only other car on a usually busy road. suddenly the ball dropped from the dog’s mouth and bounced, bounced, bounced down the road towards my car and sped under as i passed over top. i watched it continue to bounce in the rearview until i turned the corner. the dog turned back and watched the ball bounce away, never taking his eyes off it. and in that moment i felt so despondent. i couldn’t decide who i pitied more: the ball that would end up gutter trash, or the dog who clearly just lost a dear possession from a moment of relaxation brought on by pure bliss. and here i was, worrying about being 4 minutes late when animals were losing precious items with no way to call out “hey! hey! stop the car! go back! i dropped my favorite ball.”¬† there are more important things in life than time.

but in my defense, who would want to be late to that shop! look at how lovely the place is and how nice my new floppy looks in that beautiful mirror. can’t stay deep for to long. my need to surface to shallower waters is strong in this post.

daily moment

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i have a pumpkin eater. i don’t think we’ll be putting her in any pumpkin shells though.

this was the first time darla has carved a pumpkin for artistic purposes. we have painted them in previous years. this year we did the normal routine. she chose a bat as her design and hubster helped with the artwork.

she told me the other day that she’s a magical kid. i think i believe her. she makes any activity magical for me.

i love her.

daily moment

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listen everyone, we spent the entire day at the audubon park yesterday and it was glorious. i took a ton of photos that you may choose to endure at a later date this week. but my daily moment from yesterday would have to be when darla told me she wanted to attempt to jump rope at the top of the water tower. sure. why not? why not learn to skip rope 100 feet in the air?

you can judge from that first photo that she wasn’t really successful in getting that timing down. but you can judge from that second photo that she really couldn’t have cared less. she was having a great time.

and so was i.

thank you so so so much to the higher power out there that gave me this life, filled with these daily moments.

daily moment

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i was hiking in the woods, focused more on my end destination rather than the moment. all of a sudden i had an overwhelming sense that i just needed to stop and be still, to slow down. i stopped dead in my tracks and impulsively covered my face with my hands. i just let me ears take in all that was around me. i then realized i could see tiny waves of energy pulsing towards a point between my two eyes. i stood there focused on that energy reaching that point between my two eyes. then, gradually, that point began to glow a golden red color. i stood there basking in that for a minute and then felt i needed to open my eyes.

i took my hands down from my face and opened my eyes and there before me, not even 50 ft away stood a doe directly in my path. we both stared at each other for some time until she took off into the woods.

i felt overcome by this as a deeply spiritual moment. i felt that deer spirit telling me i needed to spend more time in her woods and that i was welcome whenever i like, as long as i would slow down and enjoy my surroundings while there.